Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Anyway, SISPEC is COOL SHIT!!! We went to try out the flare guns. It's really small and all, but it's really useful...i mean, that is, if we really need to use it. Then there was the flashbang, $500 bucks per piece. It's kinda like, planted to the ground, not the usual pull-and-throw. IT'S FREAKING BRIGHT!!! around 250 thousand candles. Moving on, we went to look at weapons and all those shit. Like the SAR 21 and all... Went to try out the nightvision lens, it's exactly like all other games, like CS, COD, blah blah... Then came the AWESOMEMEST SHIT EVA!!! We tried out the guns man!! As in, firing them. Really cool, it's loud and all, but who cares!? It's fun! The new comm booked the loft for their camp, but the camp got postphones, and they didn't let go of the unit(smart choice). So we kinda stayed there... It's the craziest loft stay ever... Girls getting drunk and all, tears fell, really crazy... Kinda injured my hand, cuz after hitting the wall a few times, i realised that it was really hard. That's all the cool stuff i've done at the loft. Yesterday, i felt different... I mean, just one person doing something bad, the whole clique becomes weird. I mean, it's those weird people, that stood by all the time. Need entertainment? it's them. Need a shoulder? it's them. Need someone to talk to? it's them. I'd rather keep out of everything... You know, the moment they left, it was like 'it's gona be like that soon'. Sometimes, you wake up, and for no reason, you feel something suddenly. That's when you wana wake up on another day, and hope all those feelings go away... Oh wells, i hope the day would soon come, cuz it ain't fun at all. Everything is screwed up.. ok, not really 'everything', but the things i love to do, things that are precious to me, are screwed. You're really alot of help bro, but sometimes, your estimates are a little too ambitious..and get well soon! I look at the clock, it says 1:41, i know thinking of you, ill never be done, you run through my mind, and occupy all my time, wondering why you're gone, and why you're not mine, my days go by so slow, cause you run through my head, i said I'd love you forever, isn't that enough said, you also haunt my dreams, if you know what i mean, i wake up often, with sweats and screams, why do i sleep by myself, I'm alone in my bed, i know I'll be thinking of you, till the day i am dead, now still all these thoughts, just run through my brain, cant stop thinking of her, i think i'm going insane, i feel i wanna kill myself, people say thats not what to do, but i turn and look at the clock, and it says it's only 1:42... All in a minute. It's dedicated 2 people, to one of my female friends (cuz i guess that's how she's feeling now, but i hope not) and the other is me.

KahHo blogged @ 1:29 PM